Can't sleep.

Ugh I can't sleep. I'm still stuck on the timothy issue. The no valentine issue. And being a dork issue. Life isn't so easy. Combining my school life and personal life just equals stress. I have no time to make friends because if I'm not helping others I'm using up the little time to help my self. I wish I can just sit back relax with the boy I love and everything would just happen the way it should. I swear humans are the reason and cause of global warming(of course we are)!

Reasons I have no time for life:
1. If I'm not at school I'm at home baby sitting 5 days a week.
2. My school gives me reports to do everyday.
3. The creature I call mother never lets me hang out with creatures I call friends (supposedly)
4. I'm way to lazy to do anything.
5. The one I love is far gone.


See now I can make all this change.But if I do.Then I would just be considered one of those brats who annoy adults or are judged before being met.I just hate when people judge me without knowing me.See I have this thing called karma. If someone calls me ugly or dumb then your future baby will come out ugly and dumb.That's just how life works. Sometimes I can just walk down the street and I'll have a girl starring me down.Just like at me from head to toe in a not so friendly manner.Sheesh people and there eye problems now days huh.!Anyways I don't care cause when I become a celebrity and rich and famous those who judged me and laughed at me are going to be the ones who are embarrassed.

Well have you guys ever had those times that you picture scenarios in your head.That you probably know isn't going to happen or it's a dream you want to make happen.Well that's me right now.Although I believe in my dreams. I have to sometimes escape them also.If I think too much about it I might end up crazy. I don't want to end up in one of those white rooms with a straight jacket. Creepy. But here's the catch I might move to Flordia which is great,but what if I move there and Timothy already moved on. What if he already has a girlfriend and has a new life.Now that's where reality hits me. I need to sometimes steep out of that circle called my world.It's not like Timothy is always going to be there waiting for me till he's 50.If he did though that would be so sweet.lol. But emm' yeah. I have no chose but to start thinking more maturly about love and life

Remember: Love, Peace and Chicken Grease.